My two best friends are my two most recent ex-girlfriends. In a relationship I feel a constant discomfort. Music, to me, feels more of a selfish emotional pursuit – activism’s more important. I’ve been vegan for 29 years and see animal activism as my job. So many people exist in a paradox where you love animals, but also eat them. The irony is, the more I pursued it, the less love I received. I mean, making money was fine, but it was more this sad sort of crippling need to find love and validation through the eyes of people I’d never met. I never really cared much about money, I just wanted people to like me. My mother’s dead, all my grandparents are dead, all my grandparents’ siblings, everyone’s dead – I have no one to ask. Like my father died in a driving accident, but I don’t know much more than that. There are basic biographical facts of my life that I have no idea about. When members of your family die, they take part of your history with them. Then I became a super-enthusiastic Christian for the same reason. When I was an atheist, I was a really enthusiastic atheist, and it enabled me to feel in control of my environment.
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I’ve kissed men, but I accepted I’m just a run-of-the-mill, cisgender, heterosexual male.Įnthusiasm, fear and control have been my biggest influences – and I include fear and control as the same thing.
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I grew up going to gay clubs and used to envy the way my gay friends were able to date. I would have crushes that wouldn’t be reciprocated or get into the wrong relationships.